The real question is not “What can I be?” but “What can I give?” How can I serve others with my gifts? A podcast from Satsang with Shambhavi.
FIRST WORDS FROM THE PODCAST
If you consider the ordinary self, the ordinary person that you believe you are most of the time, you have to come to the conclusion that ordinary self isn’t a thing. It’s not an object. It’s full of activity and constant change and flux. Whatever that is, it’s an experience, ephemeral, and it’s not something you can put your finger on, or point to, or condense, or congeal or finalize. It’s always in activity of becoming and unbecoming. We shouldn’t ever worry, or try to feel or act as if the central question of our lives is “What should I be?” You’re never going to be anything. You’re only going to do things. It would be more appropriate to say “I’m engineering,” “I’m writing,” or “I’m cooking,” or “I’m mothering,” than to say “I am” any of those things.
But the real question is “What can I give?” Not, what can I be, or what can I do, or how should I be, or who I should be. All of those questions are completely wrapped up in the egoic small self and our sense of limitation and separation and self-defensiveness and aggressiveness. The real question is: What can I give? What do I have to give? How can I give it? Every wisdom tradition that I’ve studied, or practiced in, or encountered, says that the hallmark of a life well lived is having the opportunity to give generously, to be generous. There’s nothing else that is really fulfilling.