Ideally, a spiritual organization should function as another field of sadhana, a vehicle for Self-realization and nothing else.
A good number of spiritual teachers found organizations, buy property and work hard at developing governance structures for their organizations. The structure and relative stability of organizations makes it easier for some teachers to serve people. Many times, organizations are formed with the intention that they function as vehicles for preserving teachings and lineage.
But within every spiritual organization I have encountered are people who form unhealthy attachments to the organization itself. They become rigid rule-keepers and earnestly over-emphasize their role in upholding and protecting the organization. Sometimes people set themselves up as gatekeepers when no one has actually asked them to take on that function.
People can become more attached to organizations and rules and position than they are to Self-realizing.
Leaving that aside, nearly everyone in spiritual organizations projects ordinary world concepts onto the organization.
The Board of Jaya Kula regularly has to regularly remind itself that we are not trying to grow. Nor are we trying not to grow. Our job is to serve the people who show up as best as we can, whether it be a few people or a few hundred people, or more.
But due to deep cultural conditioning, the simple fact of having an organization keeps flipping on the “we must grow” switch.
One time, a Board member planned a seva event. Only two other people attended, so she canceled. It wasn’t “worth it” unless more people showed up. In reality, her ego was bruised.
I reminded her that six years ago, there were only a handful of people coming to teachings. If I had canceled the teachings, none of us would be here together now.
Recently, we organized the Crucible. The Crucible is responsible for the seva, or service activities of Jaya Kula. It is made up of five Crus. Each Cru works in a different area.
The Crus are:
- Red Cru: Communications – our newsletter, webcasts, website and other tech stuff
- Blue Cru: Teachings – setting up and serving as hosts for the teachings
- Yellow Cru: Kashi House – gardening, improvements to Kashi House
- Purple Cru: Pujas, special events and the Majesty Club (where we dress up and celebrate life’s majesty!)
- Green Cru: Personal service to the teacher and the community at large.
At our meetings, I remind people that Jaya Kula is not important. The Crus are not important. The only reason for these to exist is as a field for the playfulness we call spiritual practice.
Many decades ago, when flooding caused the Varanasi Anandamayee Ma ashram to partially collapse into the Ganga, Ma herself just laughed.
While organizing and offering seva, we do our best to keep the focus on relaxing and waking up. We try to remember to laugh at ourselves if we start generating a sense of urgent self-importance about our activities, the Crus or Jaya Kula itself.
When people freak out, we work with that as people experiencing freaking out and nothing more. We know that on one level, there is never anything to freak out about. Everything is Lord Shiva at play.
As Swami Laksmanjoo said:
Seva does not mean that you will cook food for your Master. That is not seva. Seva means abhyasena [being in the state of your practice]. When you try to stay in that state of God consciousness–that is seva.
My Sat Guru, Anandamayi Ma, offered this guidance:
In this world do not become an owner, become a gardener. All problems occur when you become an owner. There are no fights if you can become a mere gardener. The world belongs to the Lord; I am only the servant, that is all. I will keep on serving according to His orders. If you can always live the life of a householder with this emotion, no new bonds will be forged.