What do you want from your spiritual practice? What do you want from life? To me these are the same question.
Since I was a small child, I have always wanted to find out about reality. What is going on here? What is our place in the cosmos? What is the nature of the self, of existence?
I hit puberty in the late 60s and was a teenager and young adult in the 70s. I tried a variety of recreational drugs.
No matter what the drug – marijuana, psychedelics, cocaine, or opiates – I arrived at the same conclusion.
I might get jumped up, or experience something “cool,” or even have an insight, but every drug I tried ultimately impaired or dampened the clarity, natural intelligence and just basic goodness of my everyday life. The world experienced through drugs was just not as interesting or vibrant as the world encountered in my normal, un-high state.