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Wholesomeness

Ambika with Flowers
Episode No. 104

Shambhavi shares the code of conduct for the Board Members of Jaya Kula based on wholesomeness. A podcast from Satsang with Shambhavi

First Words from Podcast

Somebody I’ve known for a long time said to me yesterday that she thought I was a whole universe, and I didn’t even know it. It’s kind of embarrassing to have someone say you’re a universe.

But the fact is actually that I do know it. I’ve known since I was a little kid that the goodness that I felt, that feeling of the essential goodness of everything and its creativity and its intelligence, was the universe.

I had that feeling of vastness that came out of my experience of being essentially good and sweet, wholesome, generous, intelligent, and creative. At that time I thought it was something that was contained in me. Now I realize that’s not the case. It really isn’t anything about me individually. Now I realize that everybody has that universe. And that could be the universe you’re living in every day.

When I was little, I thought of this experience as inner vastness, but it was really just this incredible creative impulse and feeling of largess. The only thing I wanted to be able to do was give it away. I wanted to share it with other people, and that just drove me through my whole life.

Then I found this tradition and realized that there might be a way I could share it with everybody. I could share it if I became open enough and open hearted enough, if I cleared out the obscurations in my own personality enough to let this universe I experienced be available to other people and not just something I was painfully feeling was myself and feeling lonely because of it.